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The Test of Consciousness is…

The worst human folly is the refusal to face one’s dark side. There is no arguing this fact, only avoidance of it. That dark side always becomes someone else’s problem until it is faced. Our fucked up world will praise you if you can find ways to project your garbage on to others and get away with it. Example – those who run the world.

The false duality of “us vs them” in our mind controlled world exists largely upon the impetus to seek and make straw-men and scapegoats.

There is a great vacuum in many. Where there should be inward looking there is lashing out. Where there should be self-house cleaning and scrutiny of one’s sacred cows/beliefs/biases/associations/leaders/champions there is projection and flinging of mud.

Everyone has a sad story about how they are a victim. Yet too many people are victims eager to become bullies and abusers. This secret impulse runs unchecked because it stems from the shadow and blind spots. Far too many seek to win the game of dominance-over-others (and unconsciously appoint authority figures to be their champion enforcers), instead of working to win the game of self mastery and consciousness within.

Far too many are secretly eager in their shadows, in self absorption; emboldened in ego, to rationalize, to champion selfishness. The less we develop the discipline to face and handle our shadows the more we become lax in letting our shadows and dark sides take over.

One can not consider their self truly conscious until they realize the hypocrisy in that. Even the biggest politicians, celebrities, religious leaders, even rocket scientists are not truly CONSCIOUS if they have not realized the hypocrisy in that… and done something about it in their selves and in their own lives.

We are not truly conscious or intelligent until we realize this.

Real consciousness is born in many moments of self humility, of not knowing the answers, even in scary shaky moments, even shocks to the system that all bring self awareness. It’s just the true self’s way of telling the ego to come back home to center. Breaking it down. What is disillusioned, may be replaced with true substance and authentic character.

Although, I have a harsh attitude toward bullshit. The way I see it, one hasn’t been through enough if they haven’t learned this lesson yet. The lesson where humility and wisdom begin.

No one is on the path until they’ve been cracked open by a few shocks and fallen to their knees for the path. Humbly opened up to the path and hungrily sought love and enlightenment with the screaming core of their being.

Wakeful consciousness begins where a humbling realization of one’s hypocrisy begins… which is where the ego in a false sense begins to end. One can accept and can be hungry for this kind of “death”, or go to sleep and wait for physical literal pains and nights to befall them.

A Call of Manhood

May this be a courageous year.

Men once had courage. They had courage before greed and possessiveness, before obsessing on acquiring the most stuff and owning vaginas before they even know their own bodies. Before they became agents of a dark machine who sell their will for an attempt to control others, ready to fuck each other over for a piece of ass or a share of the green pie.

Before all that they had courage. Before all that, nobility wasn’t a celebrity in a tuxedo. It was an inner cultivated quality and men pushed themselves to the edge to cultivate it. For a chance to know integrity and nobility.

A man would be wise to not be swayed by the machine, to not let other men set the tone for what true stature is, to not let vamps seduce him to think that stature has to do with external things.

A man sets his own tone. A man seeks to stand strong in nature, in the universe, in of himself, this is a test.

If you’re a man I hope that you find it again. I hope you get as fired up for your independent thought and sovereignty as you do for alcohol, pussy, and big screen tvs. I hope to see you on the front lines of consciousness, braving the frontier of our soul evolutions and protecting all which truly matters in our hearts, as men are supposed to do.

Lesser Evil or Greater, They’ll All Steal Your Instinct

Sometimes I wonder why we teach kids right and wrong if we’re expected to throw it away as adults.

I mean, what changes in us that makes us stray from what we know is right and to look up to what we know is wrong?

I see all this political fighting, in this dualistic arena that is so artificial. It’s like “Pick my side because my bully will only push you down, break your teeth, and make you eat sand! The other side will do all that and kick you in the head too!”

It’s like we’re programmed/conditioned/grown into this state of disconnect in our world where we lose touch with our own sense of self preservation.

I know a lot of people say “You have to vote for the lesser evil for your survival”.

But are we really surviving? We sure aren’t thriving as a whole. Are we surviving though, or slowly dying?

Everyone rejecting the mainstream, they’re just waking up to the fact that we’re dying and they’re saying “I don’t want to die!”

Anytime anyone questions the world, the “way things are”, and especially their own conditioning they’re saying “I want to live”

That’s the spirit of life. That’s the spirit of freedom.

We should revere and respect that spirit in ourselves and each other. Not try to squash it in each other.

I can’t think of anything more self destructive than trying to squash the life in each other.

We’re only on phones and computers right now because someone, at some point, discovered electricity and invented all these pieces of technology we’re using.

Someone thought outside the box and gave us running water.

You probably have ancestors who made decisions at one point that went against the group but lead to their own survival.

We’re losing that instinct. We have plenty of the instinct to be insentiently greedy, possessive, and materialistic. That greed and possession instinct doesn’t necessarily lead to the best chance of survival though.

The instinct to think for ourselves does. It’s the most important instinct because it’s the most sighted instinct.

From that independent instinct we are more aware, we behave more wisely. We don’t go around abusing and using others, or kicking them down, because from this instinct we’re aware of how precious our freedom is.

It’s the spirit of freedom, it’s something that children revel in. It’s something we would be wise to appreciate in each other.

Don’t Vote Third Party! The Lesser Evils Await!

To everyone trying to dissuade others from voting “third party” or whatever – YUCK.

Seriously, YUCK. I hate pseudo plea pulls at the intellect and sympathy like that. I hate the way these arguments use subtle authoritarian angles and seek to push the fear buttons in others.

“I understand the need for third parties and your passion for them, but you must vote for such and such because of the greater evil”

YUCK.

Our world is already on a road of destruction and in desperate need of change. WE are in desperate need of a sense of urgency. It’s only a matter of time before there’s a Fukushima in the U.S., or fracking hits a fault line, or there’s world war 3.

We already live in a country that doesn’t give a shit about lead in drinking water. It’s not outlandish to conclude that greed and apathy rule not just our water supply but much of our modern world.

There’s so much destruction and our “leaders” don’t care! These are not good times in which to turn the mind off!

If we’re lucky we’ll use the bumps along the way to wake up. To withdraw our energy and consent from our own downfall.

I’m voting for anyone but the two “evils” because I care about my self, perhaps karma. Seriously, if the world goes to shit I want to know that I didn’t support one crook over another. I have self respect and it is a respect that deeply cares about others too, about survival on a deeper and long term level not just what’s happening on the news today.

There is no good reason to support any evil, lesser or not, if one cares about their integrity.

If it takes decades for the masses to wake up and withdraw their support from false and destructive roads, and explore other options, so be it!  We are in the mess we’re in because people have lost touch and “gone along to get along” too much. We think we’re thinking long term when putting support toward the “lesser” of evils but we’re merely taking a slower road to hell.

Long term vision is something many have lost.  We’ve lost the common sense to include the survival of our hearts and souls in our practical thinking.

The only way we can save ourselves from this mess is by WAKING UP.

Commend those with the strength and conviction to do so TODAY. Don’t patronize and condescend them.

It’s not smart to condescend those who think for their selves. You will be such a person yourself some day if you aren’t already, and the “karma” we accumulate for kicking others for thinking for themselves can be ruthless. It’s the most difficult test of the soul anyone faces in this world, it’s the loneliest and harshest test. Few want to face it so they stay asleep.

There’s nothing wrong with that (we wake up when ready), but it’s not good to attack those who do challenge themselves and question the world. It’s better to listen and learn from them as we will be them ourselves some day.

It’s always better to be awake today than pay for it tomorrow. Yet there are many extenuating circumstances in which we think we must “go along to get along”. Just because we have to do that sometimes doesn’t mean we should be ok with it. Not being ok with it is what makes us human.

It’s the conflict, the nagging itch within that makes us alive. As soon as we give that up and go to sleep we are no longer living.

Condescension toward those who have courage to think for themselves is, always has been, and always will be shameful.

Maybe it’s better to stop trying to convert them and rather stop, listen, and learn from them.

The Strength To Stand True

Sometimes I’m reminded at how incredibly human, and immature, we all are. How we all have the same basic needs, that we’re social creatures seeking acknowledgement and company.

It’s one thing to seek empathy from our fellow human beings, to feel that we’re heard and acknowledged. Sometimes this need can be strong, and we have strong things to say. It’s a wonderful thing when we can share and feel heard.

It’s another thing to be like “If you don’t agree with me, side with me, and jump on MY bandwagon/how I see things then you’re not on my side and you’re the enemy!”. It’s like people who are addicted to the news, when they see something negative they expect you to jump into a negative discussion about it… but if you’re quiet rather than waste your energy talking about that negative story they lash out at you.

The imbalanced mind sees everything as duality, “black vs. white”, if you don’t throw all of your energy and agreement into siding with an imbalanced person they will turn you into an enemy too.

The human ego believes it is the center of the universe. The problem is it’s not centered, it’s mad and erratic. The ego also tends to have a problem with being too racing/active and desperately needing to find inner stillness. It’s an indication that a mind is imbalanced when it can’t appreciate objectivity and stillness… and strangely enough it’s the same imbalance that can’t appreciate free thought and authentic expression! It’s the same imbalance that tries to squash originality and freedom in others.

Some things I read today reminded me of the many struggles I faced growing up being an “outsider” because of my own calm and objective mind. People would often be drawn to my calm, strength, and I’d do amazing things for them. I’d be incredibly kind to them, but then they’d lash out at me for keeping to myself/having my own thoughts/not feeding into their biases and dramas. They’d lash out at me for standing alone and not joining a group. I was also bullied by the biggest bullies yet they never defeated me (they eventually got the picture that continuing to bully me would of been detrimental to their well being).

Bullies are everywhere, and anyone who misuses their strength over others seemingly free of or indifferent to the consequences. The bully is someone who desperately needs to face the mirror. The same could be said about the unhealthy ego in general though. It’s mad and hypocritical. It’ll attack you for what’s it doing. It’ll contradict itself in the same sentence. All in some dazed fantasy realm that distorts reality, free of self reflection and accountability. Not everyone is a “bully”, yet the typical asleep and unhealthy ego is more on the spectrum of the bully than it is on the spectrum of the hero and true self. The inner self. The authentic self, at one with thy heart and soul.

We’re all victims in some way or another in this world. How we handle it writes our tales. How we handle it is what makes us our own heroes or bullies. Some people are more asleep than others, some are madder than others. The more you awaken the more this becomes noticeable. Sometimes because those bullies and mad egos will try to push you around or take advantage of you. It’s all an incredible challenge but if you are awakening you’re already on the path. You likely have the strength to find your way, and the way is within. It’s knowing thyself. It’s your inner/higher self. It’s staying true, holding yourself both high and accountable, even when the world seems mad. It’s fully embracing yourself, it’s self forgiveness and empathy, even when the world seems cruel and unforgiving.

It takes tremendous strength to have your own mind. It takes tremendous humility, maturity, and compassion to know how mad and immature people (with their egos) can and will probably be to you at some point or another. The more you stand as your own person, the more challenges you face from the group and group think.

It is admirable for any of us to practice stillness, centeredness, and objectivity. It’s admirable when any of us exercises calmness of mind. It’s the most “bad ass” thing one can do, in a Kung Fu kind of way. It’ll make you stronger than any extroverted and flashy display of dominance.

I’ve always believed in pushing the self. Push thyself until thyself faces the mirror and has their breakdowns. Do not be afraid of those break downs, embrace them and come out stronger. Don’t push others around or attack others, especially when it’d be easy to do so.

To master the self is the greatest challenge.

It makes you tough because you’re immediately an outsider to your fellow human beings, and being an outsider now you must develop your internal strength, non attachment, and even compassion to deal with people who are going to pick on you for being an outsider.

Outsider is really code for your true Self.

It’s what makes us all insiders on the real journey. It unifies us all, no matter the mountains we have to climb or how we get there. True Self.