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For Your Health

These are “tips” of the iceberg. If you want to be healthy be ready to dive into yourself for the love of self exploration, knowledge, and your potential.

This blog is shared under the agreement of mutual uplift that you: take what you need, leave what you don’t, add to what you know, share what you know.


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The quick overview –

  1. Eat organic food and locally where possible. By doing so you help yourself and the farmers. Sleep and plenty of water are the other two basic food and lifestyle necessities.
  2. Consider getting a good water filtration system, and air purifier
  3. Remove all toxic cosmetics, soaps, and deodorants – replace with natural substances where possible. This again helps you and the world around you (the environment and consequentially others who exist on this planet as well). This also has the benefit (when combined with a good diet that promotes digestive health) of making you smell better; less body odor, better breath, and healthier bowels (which are a main way in which toxins are moved out of your body). People lather themselves with chemicals and toxins to cover up unpleasant scents; and by that contribute to the problem. Remember that health is an internal issue and begins from within. All aspects of your well being are connected in that.
  4. Use natural and high quality supplements.
  5. Consider a bodily cleansing program.
  6. Nothing works without your participation and anything works better with gratitude. Expect trial and error as you begin to listen to your body and inner guidance.


Who is an Autopathist? ANYONE who knows just what to do in sickness and does it of his own accord is an Autopathist, be he physician or patient. Sickness has no terrors for autopathists. If they were to get sick they know they could soon get well, for THEY KNOW HOW. I coined the word, Autopathy, from the Greek “Autos,” meaning SELF, and “Pathos,” meaning DISEASE or TREATMENT. Autopathy is, therefore, the scientific, or commonsense, treatment of one’s self. This knowledge is easily and quickly acquired by anyone who is willing to devote a little study to Autology and Autopathy and to this volume.


Health problems? We’re at war with ourselves. You could say that we’re at war with nature yet nature is within. You can’t “save” the nature outside of you if you neglect that (a part of you) is nature too. You have the potential to be as self generating/organizing as nature. Nature goes through cycles and your body goes through cycles. Your spirit and material body form a whole. Self honesty is firstly important to keep your being lively and inner communication pathways open.

There are many ways in which health is assaulted that we participate in. Let’s save ourselves the time and focus on something other than the body as weak, rather let’s focus on it as a living force. Does it make sense to do things to the body that impede its functions and ability to touch/experience/connect to the world? There are everyday bad habits and there is ignorantly defending things that hurt you. The first step to health is honesty with oneself. One must want to be healthy; and that desire must be greater than hold ups and prior habits/conditioning. Sometimes it is pain that causes the greatest wake ups, it tells you that you are hurting in some way. Figuring out why requires your attention and care. Your body is the ship and you’re the captain. With that in mind how far do you think that you should be getting with the extent that you’ve taken to know yourself and care for that ship?

Here are some things you can try to strengthen your health. Self empowerment can come from simple actions. A lot of this information was gotten from this video; Jerry Brunetti’s Food As Medicine.


Get sleep. Make the time.


In the emotiona sense? Yep! In the sense of higher awareness? Sure! Most basically: the actual ground! The Earth is the greatest balancer of natural energies and healer there is around here!

Balance your diet PH

This is the simplest, easiest, and cheapest thing that anyone wanting to improve their health can do. Here’s a couple links to get you started –

Table salt is bad, sea salt may or may not be better, use your discernment. I am providing this link that is critical of sea salt for the reason that there are many links on the web that thoroughly take apart table salt yet tout sea salt as the next best thing –

It’s not about the “salt”. It’s about the MANY trace minerals that are lacking in the refined and artificial diet, and that are best found in natural sources. Sea salt has gotten attention because it has trace minerals. The quality and digestibility of the salt and minerals in it is a matter of your decision. Some people can use and may need more sodium in their diets than others. Salt is however difficult to avoid. Don’t believe the hype about any kind of salt and you should do fine.

On the topic of “That’s bad for you! You shouldn’t eat that!” foods –
Refined sugar, artificial sugar, sugar found in processed foods. Refined sugars feed cancers and are bad for your teeth. Parasites in the lower digestive system and Candida yeast thrive on sugar. Eating refined sugar is like hooking a fuel line up to the gullets of these pathogens. Your body is getting little benefit from it (you get brief stimulation and a load of problems down the line).


What a perfect fruit! Raw lemons are full of minerals. They are considered alkaline because it’s the effect that the food has on the blood after it leaves the stomach that matters.

Increase your stomach acid strength

This can be done by taking betaine hydrochloride. Digestive enzymes (found naturally in raw foods) can also be purchased. Not drinking too much during meals is important because the fluid dilutes stomach acid. Make sure you are hydrated before you eat. Increasing stomach acid strength helps break down food so you’re going to get more nutrients in your blood. It’s also going to allow the intestines to do their job better. If you’re not breaking down food in your stomach it gets stored in your gut and the rot releases toxins and odor throughout the body. The source of many digestive problems is weak or too little acid. Some people take acid neutralizers to keep down the back up; which makes the problem worse.

Stomach acid also kills pathogens. It is a powerful defense against viruses, bacteria, parasites, molds. You want things in your digestive system to flow and give pathogens less time to take hold. Having healthy intestinal flora is important too. The digestive system should be fluidic and each part should function healthily which makes the whole stronger.

Drink lots of water

Firstly, you need water to function; you’re mostly made of water. Drink until you’re pooping at least a couple times a day too. Getting lots of water is also important if you are going to make dietary changes because your digestive system will need it to detoxify your body.

Don’t drink soda, it obviously is bad for teeth and wreaks havoc on the body’s sugar balance and it also leeches the body of minerals.

If you drink juice go organic and no added sugar. Pomagranates for example are a wonderful source of antioxidants. Consider getting a juicer or a blender and make your own drinks. The thing about high nutritional foods is that smaller amounts can sustain the body longer than large portions of junk. This is a testament to how hearty the human body is-when you’re not getting necessary foods your body is made to sustain off of itself and its reserves. People who defend unhealthy foods and habits are in a self defeating way proclaiming how robust their willpowers are and how hearty their bodies are. Imagine putting that potential to use to strengthen and build your health. Imagine putting that potential to better use. Imagine having more energy to use in your daily life.

Get fluoride out of your life

Fluoride degrades teeth and bone mass. It numbs the brain. It’s sourced from industrial waste from the aluminum industry and repackaged for consumption. Here’s a story that is similar to how fluoride got into the American diet –

When it comes to taking care of yourself you need to be ruthless in your discernment. You’re the caretaker of your body. You face your consequences. The world around you may experience echoes of those consequences yet you’re the one who faces them straight up. Your body doesn’t need to be “saved” so much as supported. Your body is a living force. You renew yourself each day. Being positive is embodying and acting with the virtue that we project on to heroes and want them to save us with!

Water filter

Drinking water is most important. Bottled water is often no better than tap water and comes with the added bonus of plastic. Unless you have a clean well or underground stream near by it’s a good idea to invest in a water purifier.

Fats are good for you

So is cholesterol. Your body needs fat, as it does salt and sunlight. Get a good amount of healthy fats and you’re going to feel filled. Good sources of fat are organic eggs, coconut oil, nuts, olive oil, fish oil (sourced from smaller fish is better because they have less mercury; do your own research).

Did you know that the vegetable oil you cook with turns rancid and carcinogenic at high temperatures? You might want to research that too.

Get rid of yeast

There are healthy yeasts and yeast that you don’t want in your body (Candida yeast). If you have digestive problems it may be a good idea to avoid all yeast until you figure out the causes of your problems and address them.

Yeast is found in many bread products, refined and processed foods. Check the labels, even soy sauce has yeast in it. To help counter it get probiotics in your meals. Yogurt is the easiest way, although capsules can be bought too. Vegetables are also a good way to counter yeast. Yeast feeds on sugars, the less complex the carbs the better for the yeast-although whole grains work as well for it (and it doesn’t help that most store bought bread has yeast in it). The only way to remove it is to stop feeding it, and create a presence of healthy bacteria in your lower digestive system. Are you seeing a pattern yet? It’s not enough to remove the burden-it’s at your discretion to fill the void with something better. Think of it as like clearing your garden of weeds. Now what are you going to plant?

If you have mercury in your mouth you really should get rid of yeast. The mercury in the fillings kills beneficial bacteria and allows nasty kinds to grow. With that happening it is easier for Candida yeast to take hold. Also be wary for yeast die offs if you eliminate it from your diet. People usually feel worse before better as they detox it from their bodies.


Anything with “natural flavor, hydrolyzed protein, yeast extract” in the ingredients list or any variation there of; has MSG in it.

Manufacturers are not required to list the chemical as MSG unless monosodium glutamate is actually in the product (it’s not “MSG”, it’s “processed free glutamic acid”).

If you want to find out if there is processed free glutamic acid (MSG) in a product, you must ask the manufacturer for information about “free glutamic acid”. Don’t ask about “MSG”. Manufacturers find it convenient, when speaking to consumers, to tell them that there is no “MSG” in their product, meaning that there is no ingredient called “monosodium glutamate.” Even if a manufacturer tells you there is no MSG in a product, there may be autolyzed yeast, hydrolyzed pea protein, carrageenan, sodium caseinate, enzymes, and a whole slew of other ingredients that contain or create processed free glutamic acid (MSG) during manufacture.rnrnIf you are told that all of the MSG in a product is “naturally occurring,” thank the manufacturer for that meaningless information, but explain that all processed free glutamic acid (MSG) is referred to as “natural” by the FDA — so “natural” tells you nothing. In fact, as the word “natural” is defined by the FDA, the food ingredient “monosodium glutamate” is “natural.”

Go organic

Not only is it healthier for you (you’re going to wipe out many problems from your diet as well as consume food that your body needs), you’re also supporting organic farmers, manufacturers and retailers. It is more expensive but you’re going to get more nutrition from it. The lie is that junk has any nutritional value. This applies to more than food.

Say adios to non organic milk

If you want dairy go organic (there are pasteurized varieties of organic milk) or find an organic dairy farm.


Separated from the wheat; the gluten is something resembling a rubber ball. If you must eat wheat breads try sprouted grain breads. I’m not going to go over bleached and enriched white bread because if you’re reading this you should know better. Whole wheat bread and multi grain bread is not all that better.

Many of us have wheat allergies and don’t notice because we force our bodies to develop balances with things that detract from us. Take the yeast, wheat, and processed foods out of your diet and you will notice a difference after you go through the withdrawal and the detoxification. Be sure that you do your research before making any changes and talk to your doctor if you have one. Changing diet is firstly a personal initiative although having a professional opinion to weigh in your decisions may be a good idea.

Microwave ovens destroy the nutritional value of food

Avoid them. Sit further away from the TV and computer too if you can help it. Cell phones, cordless phones, and power lines! The best thing to do is to stay away from them when you can.

Electronic appliances also put out a lot of positive ions which can cause and contribute to serotonin irritation syndrome.

Power Lines – not Radiation but Static Electricity Causes Diseases and Cancer

Any parents out there wondering why your kid is so cranky and agitated? Other than the food they’re eating it may have something to do with the TV they are glued to. Positive ions wreak havoc on the body and neurological system.

Human wonder, compassion, creativity; and other virtues of the human spirit existed far before TV and cell phones were introduced into people’s lives.

You must be honest with yourself in regard to what devices you choose to use (its benefits and negatives).

Beeswax candles

beeswax candle.

Also consider getting a negative ion generator, these are more expensive than candles and require a source of electricity yet can be run continuously.

Not only do beeswax candles emit negative ions, they last longer than normal candles. Paraffin candles may have lead in the wicks and be full of chemicals. The scented mood lighting candle thing = surface cover and is typical of the modern mindset-surface focused (this was covered at the beginning of the blog with deodorizers). Health is waiting underneath the toxicity that we have filled and surrounded ourselves with.

The sun

Get lots of sunlight, taking care to use precautions according to your skin tone. Make your material life a canvas of balance; vibrant nights and days. Of course there are rainy days, snowy days, and all of that too. It’s your life rain or shine.

Maitake, Shitake, Reishi mushrooms

Are good immune system boosters. It is a good idea with all new supplements to take things slow and in small amounts at first.

Be well during cold season

First understand that stuffing yourself in a stale environment contributes to getting a cold. Fresh and cold air can enliven the body so be sure to take time to get fresh air if you work in an enclosed environment for long periods of time.

Make sure that if you take a supplement of Vitamin C it is complete Vitamin C. Ascorbic acid is partial; which forces your body to give minerals to make complete Vitamin C (supplements are supposed to supply not detract).

Synthetic vitamins are near useless

Are your supplements working? Synthetic vitamins do not resonate with living cells because they are not living. That people have survived while taking them says more about the resilience of the human body rather than the crap consumed. Get with vegetables and fruits, or even green food drinks. If you must take vitamins do your homework.

DNA can be affected by consciousness, thoughts and feelings, and environment. It can change throughout life as life is organic and flowing. The more we fight ourselves the more we cause our suffering and welcome snake oil solutions. Nature will be here long after you are gone. It is time to rediscover what “self consciousness” is.

Anything you do or change in your diet is going to have a more poignant effect if you’re striving to improve your health. If you’re on the path everything is going to come together to make you healthier. Your participation is required in that. If you want to be healthy you have to apply your intent and do your own research. It takes time to get healthier, and should be enjoyable as you do. Cherish every moment of your life.

You have a little more knowledge now. How you use it is up to you.

Best of health!

The destruction of culture is our fault

What’s destroying the progress, or even any unique markers, in human culture in America? Why is it stagnant? Is it all the fault of external factors like psychopaths ruining human institutions? Is it all the fault of unseen and quasi-mystical factors like aliens or demons? Is it all caused by deterministic fate in the material world?

Then again, maybe our egos are to blame. Maybe self indignation is to blame, everyone who gets worked up when their “side” or sports team is criticized.

This happens on social media all the time with politics. Someone will criticize the extreme political left/right for obvious destructive and absurd tendencies… Then some self righteous indignant asshole will take offense at that.

Our egos left in their base states, not kept in self-aware check or pushed to evolve, are very tribal. We identify and associate with sides/groups/banners/causes. When those banners are criticized, we too often get indignant.

We protect the worst and ugliest aspects of our “side” or our “group” rather than see the obvious flaws in these ugly elements. Rather than see how the extreme and ugly elements of our associated “side” is actually working against us!

We get indignant and defend the worst.

Now I’m not saying there aren’t forces of regression working against human culture and consciousness. Not saying they’re aren’t outright attacks against the positive elements of society-all aspects of it be it art, media, politics, business, religion and spirituality.

There are those attacks. With politics, there are attacks on the true spirit of liberalism and conservatism, which should upset us all.

Even if you’re a political liberal, and if you’re pro-human conscious and cultural growth, you should be as upset when the true spirit of conservatism is attacked as if the spirit of true liberalism is being attacked. You should be critical of the extreme absurd and ugly elements in the political left that only seek chaos and destruction.

The same goes for you if you’re politically conservative and vice versa.

The same goes for anything! If you work in an industry and you do your best to bring meaning to your work, to do your chosen path and industry justice… You should be able to call out and hold accountable those in your industry who are fakes and giving your industry a bad name. You shouldn’t be attacking the casual bystanders who criticize the fakes/ugliness in your industry. You should be calling those fakes out yourself because they bring down the integrity of everything!

Our egos are the strongest nodes in the destruction of human culture and civilization.

It’s our egos that fall into a tribal minded state, that associate/align with tribalism and one’s “side” that are fueling the destruction of civilization and the stagnation of culture.

It’s all about what we choose to align with in ourselves. Is it merely a “side”, a banner face of our favorite sports team?

Is it rather consciousness itself? Is it integrity regardless of the “side” or tribal association?

Our “tribe” should be the integrity of consciousness itself, it should be truth, it should be substance with meaning.

The second we snap to retaliate with indignant words against anyone and anything that challenges even the most superficial and fake aspects of our “side”, group, affiliation… is when we lose.

It’s one thing to defend against outright attack against something you invest your identity in and care about. It’s another to be so egotistically sensitive that you react against any perceived slight with indignation and by playing “devil’s advocate” for the worst of what or who you affiliate with.

It’s all about sense of honor. Where does our sense of honor reside? Is it for truth and integrity itself, to the extent that we strive to keep even ourselves in check? Is it for superficial egotism that simply turns into a rabid dog without self awareness when one’s “side” is questioned?

It’s not even about “sides”. When we are drawn to “this and that” we should be striving to do justice to and honor the integrity of “this and that”. If you believe in “this and that” then strive to live in a way that shows it, and understand that the other person’s “this and that” may not be your “this and that” yet is just as necessary in the wholeness of civilization.

Our “this and that” don’t have to be at war with each other like false dualities. False dualities and manufactured conflicts appeal to the lower ego. They appeal to our lower selves that want to indulge in tribalism and self destructive conflict.

Where is culture going? Go look at social media and all the people getting indignant because someone criticized the extreme ugliness/hypocrisy/corruption/negativity of their “side”. Culture is stagnant because its growth is being fought on many fronts. Not the least of which is us when we fight against positive/useful criticism and critical awareness of the corruption in our world (when the corruption happens to be on the “side” we identify with).

My goodness fellow waking egos, develop a better sense of self than that! Develop a true sense of individuality that doesn’t rely on gaining sense of identity from a sports team or politician.

The corrupt elements of any “side” or group are not anyone’s friend! Those corrupt elements are the true dissidents, only out for themselves and working against the integrity and cohesion of not just our “side” but of the whole. Of everyone, of culture itself.

Our own egos are the enemies when we refuse to see this and would rather make excuses and rationalizations for the corruption, because our egos take it personally when our “side” is questioned.

The unhealthy ego is so insecure it has no identity of its own, no foundation to stand on. All structures are built upon foundations. If we’re turning into a world that doesn’t have strong inner foundations, culture has nothing to stand on.

Another way to look at what is happening in our collective world is narcissism. Narcissists also have a strange superiority/inferiority complex where they (their “side”) can not be criticized because it is godly and perfect, yet the imperfections they can not deny are explained away with rationalizations (it’s never the narcissist’s fault when they do wrong).

Our increasing state of collective narcissism is our stagnation. Narcissism is to fight the flow of consciousness itself because it refuses to be questioned, challenged, or upset.

We only grow as sentient beings when we have the courage to question and challenge ourselves. So that our hearts, minds, and consciousnesses develop. Strong senses of self identity and independent thought.

Without that useful agitation we only find stagnation. Stagnation is what we fight for when we get indignant about the corruption of something we identify with getting brought to light.

The false self, the unhealthy and narcissistic ego fears and hates the light (of inner awakening, of consciousness, of truth). It will do everything to suppress that light except in the narrow spectrum where it is allowed to shine and be seen as godly. Narcissism is fundamentally a denial of the inner/true self, it is a running from the soul and “higher self” (which is also one’s future and highest evolved self).

The war against human culture and civilization begins within us. The destruction wins every time we capitulate to and feed the false self. The growth of consciousness and soul wins every time we choose the sobering light of self awareness. Sometimes that light is pangful, sometimes it’s blissful, it’s many different states of being and experience. It’s called truly being alive in the most fundamental ways, within.

The narcissist of course tries to mimic that liveliness with superficiality and extreme externalization however narcissism seeks death and numbing of the true self, and creates a culture of death.

The spirited person seeks a spirited awareness, to truly be alive. The courageous heart will refuse to shy away from challenges risen up with the light of self awareness, even when the ego itself is challenged because they know the ego is not the inner self. The ego can be built in healthy or unhealthy way.

If we want to see human culture and civilization thrive we all have a responsibility that begins within. It begins not with “doing” anything, rather with realizing where these battles fundamentally begin and always striving to remember.

It’s easy to get swept up in the winds of mainstream media, social media, and other influences over collective (un)consciousness. It’s easy to fall into narcissism, tribalism, and other traps of the lower self. We have to remember that’s not where our true selves reside. Our true selves do not reside in the media’s slant on reality. Our true selves were not born and created by the group or tribe.

We need to remember to have pride in ourselves. The group or “side” you chose did not suffer with you through your most trying personal challenges. It did not love you and care for you… If you’re a survivor it means that YOU did the work. You owe nothing to any group or “side” or external monstrosity of an institution or mindless collective phenomenon.

Ie. and since the “Avengers” movie is so popular now. Telling people they should like that comic book movie because it made a lot of money is sycophantic without any pride in oneself. I’ve seen responses like that a lot to any dislike of mainstream phenomenons. You don’t have to be harshly critical of something the herd currently favors above its own livelihood and existence, simply not going along with it will get weird defensive reactions from the mindless shells in it.

We must remember that anyone can wake up. We are not the brands/labels we wear, we are not our political “sides”, we are not the groups and cliques our egos associate with.

Some people have more work to do than others in waking up and reversing the force of narcissism which fights the natural flow and growth of self awareness. Of consciousness. Of the soul.

The work begins within.

Candida Auris, Paul Stamets, and Balance vs. Imbalance

The issue here is a much bigger one than the scare of the week, and we all can learn from it.

It’s a very simple issue with exponential implications.

Now we can certainly point out on this planet how microbes are carelessly misused, treated, and even used in a destructive way in weaponry. This carelessness would include the over use of anti-microbial drugs. This would all fall under the umbrella of a negative relationship with said microbes.

Then there’s some like Paul Stamets , who has a much more positive and conscious relationship with fungus.

If anything destroys us it will be our negative/darkened awareness/ignorant relationship with ourselves and the world around us. If anything saves us it will be developing a healthier, more conscious and whole minded, relationship with ourselves and world.

Call it a whole minded, soul integrated approach to reality vs. a psychopathic, false narcissistic self serving, fractured approach.

Unfortunately the psychopaths are winning and infecting the rest of the human race with their dysfunctional mind. Which is fractured and unable to see other perspectives-the full range of consciousness, and extremely destructive.

This is seen in modern political social diatribe. People are turning into tribal minded primitives out to get the other side of the false divide. We’re taught to divide ourselves in of ourselves. To harbor negative/hateful/fearful relationships in of ourselves with any and all aspects of our own beings and the world around us.

The unhealthy ego loves it because it gains a sense of individuality from this self fracturing and limiting. Individuality gained through the negative mind and reduction of consciousness. Through self limitation.

There’s a lot to learn from communal entities like fungi. Certainly the times are so crazy that even using a word like “communal” and pointing to the communal relationship of another organism, merely to study, will trigger the political left/right paradigm in some. Surely this post must be promoting communism… I’ve seen insane leaps of ill-logic made by the political left/right over less.

If your mind isn’t colonized by that bullshit and you aren’t triggered by words, then you should know there is a world out there, in nature, waiting to teach you about… itself, yourself.

It’s very important to study how nature works and maintains its balance. There’s nothing more dangerous, not even what the gloomiest conspiracy theory can conjure, than a human ego that is like an alien unto itself. The person disconnected from their own beingness stirs all manner of destruction and suffering. They will do it believing that what they’re doing is righteous (subjective thinking allows us to believe anything is good, right or wrong). That they have to save us from our souls, our stability and be as lost and fractured as they are.

The virulent psychopath is like a virulent strain of bacteria that has gotten out of control and imbalances the ecosystem. We’re so collectively and spiritually asleep, lethargic, disconnected from our true selves that this imbalance has taken place.

The thing is it’s not really anyone’s fault. We’re conditioned to be this way, our ancestors were conditioned. The only hope we have is getting in touch with ourselves, back down to our better senses again.

That’s why developing a healthy, positive, accepting-embracing rather than negative and negating relationship with nature is important. It’s not just about nature and whatever it is you’re studying and meditating on. It’s about re-training your mind toward a positive relationship with yourself, with others, with creation. One that allows expansion of consciousness and growth of soul. Not the bolstering of the false self and materialism at the cost of soul and consciousness.

Ferrets and The Flow

Hey humano, quero que você veja meus filhotes.😎

Posted by Ferrets no Brasil on Saturday, June 10, 2017

The ferret mistakes his fingers for her kits?

The ferret wants to show the kits off?

The ferret needs a babysitter?

The obvious answer is mistaken identity or that the hand is being used as a warm babysitter (ferrets steal socks, why not hands too).

Having had ferrets, I think she’s showing the kits/nest off. It’s not uncommon for pets with babies to seek out human attention. The idea that “It takes a village to raise a child” is not exclusive to human babies.

We’re basically parental figures to our pets since they depend on us to survive, and they really do seek our approval. Yes the animal has its own maternal instincts, it is totally capable of caring for its young. Yet you as a higher being bring in another factor into its reality. A bridge between the “above” and “below”. The bonding and approval we show to our pets does have an impact on them. For us it would be the same as a “higher” being interacting with us.

When people ask if a higher power exists, etc… All you need to do is look at how you’re treating your children and animals. Anyone “lower” than you on the scale of consciousness (not lower in a hierarchically controlling way). What kind of channel for higher love/guidance are you for anyone who looks up to YOU?

How we treat those “below” us is like a gateway we open for how we ask to be treated.

Happy Love Day

True Love & Toxic Love: 14 Core Differences

In honor of the day and love that uplifts, heals, and frees the heart.

I was going to write something romantic, but there’s plenty of romantic sentiment elsewhere today.

Awareness is supreme and to be able to really let go and play in a relationship we need awareness. We need understanding and trust.

We often learn the hard way how important those things are though, even if we already know what they are.

Those with hearts often serve as prey to toxic people and behaviors. Always taking it on like we have to for some reason. Rationalizing the mistreatment in some way out of misplaced empathy and wishful thinking.

The ideal love we think we have is shattered by slights and abuses that we don’t even recognize until it’s too late. Maybe we try to hold on to the person who is hurtful and situation that devalues us.

You can’t love a parasite in your body away nor can you love a toxic person, a narcissist, to change. It just feeds and enables them.

So fuck them.

I don’t believe in moral ambiguity when it’s about how human beings should treat each other. This is the simplest and least ambiguous thing there is.

Some people would say that these aren’t positive wishy washy words for the holiday, and I’d say that’s exactly what a toxic person would say. If we see no evil and speak no evil we can’t see their behavior and point them out.

So protect thyself with awareness.

Love can still (always) be experienced. From a different perspective, maybe a weary if not wiser perspective, it can be had though.

The bad experiences take us into the dark, they block us off from real love and try to isolate us. Love is always there though, it doesn’t go anywhere. We can always find it again. It’s found deep within if you can survive your own scars, pain, and sadness.

People who haven’t really been hurt tend to recycle the same old rhetoric that you’ll find love again and it will make everything right. That puts the focus outside the self though, it continues the problem that lead to the hurt first place. It makes it someone else’s responsibility.

And what of the time in between meeting someone else and being alone? Who’s to say that you do meet someone else? Not trying to be a downer as there is a great possibility we will meet someone else yet there’s no guarantees. So you have to get to know yourself, make a friend with yourself. Know your heart and body.

There are no guarantees but we can increase our chances of encountering love again by getting to know ourselves. Healing ourselves. Knowing what we love and what we’re about, tends to attract the same. That’s when we’re most magical, that’s when we meet love when we least expect it but it’s not even the universe’s power that delivers the new experiences. It’s our own. It’s how much we know and love ourselves, and draw others to us who are compatible with our self love.

I think, and this is my experience, what makes everything alright is knowledge. It’s processing what happened and coming out more aware and stronger from it.

Fuck the toxic and abusive people. I don’t mean that spitefully. I mean, they don’t deserve thought or energy. If they’ve hurt us they’ve already taken enough from us.

What is normally a virtue and strength in a healthy relationship, a toxic person will exploit as a weakness and use against us. Especially empathy and the desire for things to be better than they really are.

Empathy and openness make a healthy relationship incredibly strong, but in a toxic relationship they are exploited and leave you feeling exploited and bad about yourself.

A healthy relationship should build us up though. It should honor and exalt our hearts and humanity, not exploit them. The first relationship we have is with ourselves.

There is often little we can do to control how others treat us if they don’t care to care how they treat us. We have all the control in how we treat ourselves and that relationship though.

I could write volumes about the toxic and hurtful experiences I’ve been through, and how I’ve been used at times of vulnerability and naivety. The answer is the same though no matter who we are and what we’ve been through. The only thing that makes it right is the healing we do within. The knowledge and awareness we give to ourselves.

It puts us in a position to love and be loved as a whole not a half. Two wholes make a stronger relationship, like interlocking rings. How do they interlock if they are whole? That’s the magic of real love. Its bonds are powerful and yet it is completely freeing and uplifting.

Truth is Offensive

Truth is offensive.

It always has been. I guess ever since there has been an “ego”.

This truth has merely been politicized (and weaponized against the common mind) in modern day. That truth is offensive. So the ego becomes its own autoimmune disease against its own consciousness and chances at growth out of the darkness.

Embrace truth. Embrace self honesty. Face your own mirror. Be brave to see through the bias that you hold about the world around you.

Tear the circus down because it’s not providing you with useful content or even entertainment. It’s a parasite that is feeding off of you. You are its battery and it has no love or respect for you. We’re all resources for it to exploit. So clowns of every shady shade can dance on stage while we suffer for scraps.

This isn’t about calling others out and poking holes in others’ arguments for a myopic and brief hit of egotism over the other guy. This is about having the courage to see the blind spots and holes in your own view. To undress your own hypocrisy. As difficult as it is.

It’s better to learn to sustain on boring offensive truth than the unsustainable fast food. The fast food that makes us feel good as it makes us feel like shit, but we push that discomfort deep down. Our aversion to the fast food is our guardian yet we push it down to put on a face and go along with the crowd.

No one has to follow the crowd off the cliff. It may have a strong momentum but going within is a stronger grounding.

Embrace truth because it’s the only way to survive. The body needs proper nutrients and the consciousness needs real light and truth.

Political Correctness, Spiritual Uncorrectness

It’s everywhere, but I’m not a right side winger, they have ego children issues too. I don’t prescribe to the dualistic ideology traps meant to arrest the masses in endless self destruction. You shouldn’t either. Just because the world writes you a prescription for something doesn’t mean you have to take it.

Political correctness condescends and patronizes. Let’s celebrate diversity by pretending it doesn’t exist, and lets celebrate differences by attacking those who think differently than us? Political correctness is the leftist extreme to the rightist extreme of stereotypical racism and sexism. Bigotry is bigotry. It’s the same thing in a new socially acceptable package. Can you smell the hypocrisy?

It doesn’t speak to the adult in people. It speaks to the egotistic child. It’s like feeding a child candy and video games their entire childhood and never setting any structure. The child may hate the rules but the adult in them understands. The adult in them appreciates being seen as capable of the responsibility.

Bringing out and sensitizing the egotistic child in people is not going to make a world of understanding and acceptance of the diversity of life. It festers conflict because the egotistic child within us operates in duality and thrives in conflict, not higher thought.

So then the person who is right and superior becomes the one who can cut down the other side of the argument better. The one who is more smarmy. The one who is more brutal. The one who can “bring it” and shame the other side best, regardless of one’s own authenticity and argument.

Then you get a hypocritical hydra puddle of people attacking people because they feel they’re persecuted and in the right. Everyone is a victim, which they believe gives them the right to strike out against everyone else.

I think if you’re smart and have self respect you’ll tune out any “leader”, any media figure, any influence who aims to sensitize the ego child in you and polarize you AGAINST someone or something.

Such is the game of senseless conflict, wasted energy, and darkness. In the end only the darkness wins.

Our only power over the darkness is consciousness and compassion.

but if people want to tear themselves up and be willing sacrifices to the darkness… I’d say send me a postcard, but not much escapes a black hole.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year!

May your ego be full of a little less hubris and your attitude a little less cynicism

If we’re corrosive to ourselves and others it doesn’t matter how much love and happiness we receive. It gets drained.

So I wish you sobriety. May you learn to look at life without bias so your ego doesn’t constantly drain you.

If all you want is happiness and simplicity I hope that truth never finds you. I hope you manage to hide from the light in uncomfortable darkness. Though maybe you have some form of superficial light to cling to like money, outer beauty, material possessions, social status, etc. So if all you want is to be simple and happy, may your desire for substance and true light never surpass the shallow measures in your life.

Do not expect me to join you, do not expect me to respond when you get mad when I walk away. I return jagged insults back to sender. If you have shadow to process then may you realize what caused it, and eat your own, instead of making it someone else’s burden. None of us can afford those who wield hurt but turn into drama majors when the mirror is turned on them. There are people with mental illness who behave that way but the majority of the population has no such excuse.

If you’re hurtful toward others may you find the humility to see yourself and see past your ego to consider other people. May you realize it’s not all about you,

May this be the year you realize that if you play with negating words/actions toward others you’re playing with darkness and waive your right to play a victim. There is no right side when the sides are owned by darkness.

May this be the year we all see through the facade of our own false “innocence” aka naivety, the hubris that corrodes our true essence.

If you want to be more than a creature in a cage, may you wake up to how brutally and beautifully complex and incredible life is.

At the end of the day we don’t matter as superficial identities that mostly aren’t even defined by us but by society and what we think we need to be. I don’t wish you trite happiness if it means going to sleep in the machine. I wish that you find courage to face the light of consciousness and your mirror.

Happy New Year. Many blessings. May you find humility and your best possible path that makes you shine and contributes to the universe at large. Be a universal citizen and be your own authority on your integrity. Neither gods, nor karma, nor anyone else is going to keep you in check.

Shine And Receive

All beings want to be in the light of the Father and love of the Mother.

All higher beings potentially represent that to those further down the soul evolution ladder.

Yet when I play with an animal, I feel like a child. I feel the light on me.

Strengthening The Light Strengthens Us

I think I’m nowhere to be found on the political spectrum. The world is a tough place, yeah. So we have to put our own efforts in. At the same time it can be so cruel that it is a good thing to help (when we can) others find their feet, their step, or maybe heal their feet.

I think the madness and cruelty of the world can really have a corrupting effect on us. It can really turn people into overly egotistic, judgmental, negative something or others…

So I try to find the good in all sides. I have left leaning friends, I have right leaning friends. I have religious, spiritual, and atheistic friends. I try to listen to the knowledge and compassion in all of them.

It’s a cruel world and I think in some ways it’s been made that way to corrupt us. To make us into Orcs, like fallen Elves (LOTR reference). It becomes easy for the darkness and madness to take center stage in our eye’s and fill our realities.

That’s why we should focus on the light in ourselves, each other, everywhere. In different opinions, ideas, sides. It’s not about duality. It’s about finding the quality and follies in both sides.

The only counterbalance to the darkness out there is focusing on the light in all things. I don’t mean in an “Everyone gets a sticker” kind of way. I mean in a way that takes strength and effort to cultivate that light and encourage it in others. I wish we did that more.

Just because we focus on the light doesn’t mean we become blind to the darkness in the world. It means that we become stronger and develop self command, so the darkness doesn’t possess us. It means seeing the corruption and pain with knowledge and empathy.

Focusing on the quality in ourselves and others makes that light a stronger reality. If some people don’t seem to have any light, then focus on those who do. Those who don’t will want to catch up eventually and leave the darkness of chaos and separation from the light to be part of the true “in” crowd.

The more we focus on and exercise the light the easier it becomes because it begins to take center stage.

It’s like a muscle, all muscles become stronger when exercised.